Life has been a real blur. As we get older, more things happen at the same time... n it seems hard to keep up.  Really, i mean.. its like just yesterday i was learning how to draft a basic skirt. n now i actually have a collection of menswear ready for marking. The amount of struggles i had is astonishing. yet somehow, i made it through. i thought the past 4 months would be hell. it only turned out fun. yes,tiring.. but fun. but i'm really silly tho.. it took me this long to realize i wanted to do better in my first 2 years. i guess i thought i'd never amount to anything good. yet somehow, with God's grace.. my collection isn't that bad! i actually feel proud of it.

It's only the start of the year, yet so much has happened. n its not whats happened that scares me.. it's whats to come. We hate the thought, but the fact of the matter is, life doesn't get any easier. It simply gets harder, you learn to cope with it, then it stays at that level til something new comes along. kinda like a game. The monsters don't get easier.. you just get stronger.

But sometimes i wonder, really, Do i? i just got you.. now i've lost you. just like that. and id sworn to take care of you. it really breaks my heart to know that people like them exist. yet i do know. i always knew people like that. they don't realize they are them. Why are men so evil? i can't even sell a friend anything at a profit without feeling bad. why do people blow torch cats, starve their dogs, steal from others, bully, abuse and just be them? i mean i understand why they want to do that. i just don't understand how they CAN do it, and without feeling anything really?

well, really.. i give up. i guess i'll never know..

P.S Dear Goldilocks, i hope whoever has you, deserves you. <3